I imagine I'm not unique as a writer when I finish a story and I'm kinda happy with it (we're writers, we're never really happy with it, but it gets to a point where we've had enough rewrites and hemming and hawing and just want to sub it or publish it) and decide to let it go into the ether, and I wonder what this particular tale can do for my career.
Whether it's a short story or a novel, and whether you write full-time or on the off-hours when you aren't at the day job, each finished tale leads you somewhere. But where?
I know I'm in the majority when I say, when my first novel was finished, I started seeing dollar signs and new cars and yachts and living like a rap mogul (no idea why that part, I just did). Why not? I'd just committed to paper (figuratively) that greatest epic known to man, Cthulhu and/or the animal kingdom. I was about to be rich! The Benjamins were going to flow in my direction, and I could buy my parents a new house and use hundred dollar bills at the McDonalds drive-thru.
That didn't happen on the first book, and it hasn't happened yet for me. Will it? I hope so. Yeah, yeah… I know, the politically correct thing to say is 'I write because I love it.' I get that. No matter what happens, I will never stop writing. I don't care if the bottom completely falls out for me and I go back to a crappy job, I will still find time to write. That's not the issue. But I still want to get paid a big chunk of cash, too. I want to be able to live comfortably off of my written word and not have to worry about paying a late electric bill ever again.
I finished four stories in the last two weeks. I have over a dozen others waiting to get released, either by me self-publishing or publishers getting ready to. Will I make it? I think so. I keep writing each and every day and getting closer. What will happen once they come out?
I wish I knew. I wish I could type THE END (by the way, I never type THE END - I hate that for some reason) and know beyond a shadow of a doubt it is about to net me my first million. Heck, I get excited when anyone buys any of my releases. And I have over 150 of them to choose from right now on Amazon. I want to keep writing and releasing, using a mix of self-publishing, small press and larger press. However I can get stories into reader's (old and new) hands.
Until I get that magic power, I will keep writing and hope for the best. I'll never write a story in the hopes of making it more commercial in order to sell more copies, but I will keep plugging away and hoping one of them strikes a chord in the reader's imagination, and more and more readers will find it and cherish it. Or even like it enough to pay for it.
Until then… I'll be in my usual seat, pounding away at my daily 2,000 word a day goal. And finishing more and more stories. But never, ever typing THE END
Armand Rosamilia is a New Jersey boy currently living in sunny Florida. He writes about zombies and horror and Heavy Metal. Yes, he does have 150+ releases. Go look on his Amazon.com Author Page!